ABOUT_ME
PERSONAL_MANIFESTO
> This page is for those curious to know about a little bit of me behind the scenes. Behind the mask, and the appearances
Who am I, what am I doing down here, what is my purpose and ultimately, why exactly this way, why exactly to me?
"I will tell You in two words who I am, What I do and how I live. May I?"
Let's start from the beginning, or perhaps not. Better not to waste time. A well structured bio can’t contain me, sorry.
I am someone who never stops, even when standing still. I'm stubborn, sometimes a coward and also a bit of a bastard.
I always do my best, even if my best is almost never "the best". But I give it my all, as if I were being paid for it. Even when I'm not paid at all.
I believe in merit, in will, in responsibility. Every time I fell, I got back up, sometimes on my own, sometimes thanks to someone else. But I'm always right here. Asking myself "but how the fuck do you do it?". Without ever reading the instructions before making a mess and understanding the need for them. But I'm always ready to make things right and earn forgiveness, even from myself (which is ultimately the only thing that matters).
I am someone who has been disappointed by illusion. My own fault for wanting to believe in it too much.
I am someone who cries for strangers on the street.
I am someone that if you meet at night, you'll change your path.
I am the madman driving the wrong way.
Armed and dangerous. Wanted and vain.
My memories are a minefield from which, however, I've learned a lot.
I think differently, but I'm good at pretending everything is normal. And maybe everyone does that a little bit.
I like to laugh at myself and rarely with myself.
I've always had the impression that there isn't much space for me, allocated resources, or facilitated conditions.
"-The freaking game is rigged, I tell You, God damn it!-"
I'm still learning how to play.
The rules are clear, but hard to follow without believing in them.
"-We are living in a shared dream, and I’m not so sure I want to keep dreaming-"
I've played 3 times so far. This is the fourth. (But wasn't it "3rd time the charm?")
The most confusing one, but also the clearest. It seems incredible, but if in the end I truly believe in it, maybe 'this time it works.
We are all in a single computation, a single real-time process, with infinite possibilities but only one destination.
Nodes in a hypergraph, variations of the same parent. Bound and controlled by local information clusters.
In constant competition with myself and with everyone else at the same time.
I am someone who has experimented, seen sounds, heard colors. Connected to a higher dimension, in search of the perfect shape.
Which happens to be a Tetrahedron.
– A great shape, a wonderful shape, everybody knows it, it’s the best… or so I’ve been told.-
I look behind my eyes more than forward.
I find myself better inside than outside.
I have as many vices as virtues. And there are not just a few.
I truly understood, in the end.
Purtroppo.